the calm before the storm

transitions, goodbyes, + in betweens - next stop PARIS!!!!

Hi everyone!

It’s my last night in NYC for a minute…I don’t think its hit me yet. I’m the type of person that lives very presently in each moment, which I’m really grateful for. I have had a whirlwind of a few weeks here and am so glad I’ve gotten to soak up every second of them.

At this moment in time, I feel a sense of calmness. I moved out of my apartment yesterday, which always comes with so much emotion. That apartment was really freaking special to me. When it comes to NYC apartments, it’s so much more than just a space, it is a version of yourself in time. And I know I won’t ever get that exact version of myself back, and that’s what makes it so nostalgic. I spent my last night in that apartment exactly the way I spent my first, with a random FUN Friday night on the town. I spent about 6 hours dancing and then came home to my almost empty room and ate some Mcdonald’s. As I should. Soco in Soho - what an ERA!! (well it’s not even close to being over, we're just taking a pause) The same streets I used to walk as a little girl day-dreaming have become the streets I walk every single day. Sometimes you gotta take a step back and really take a minute to realize how far you’ve come. I can get so caught up in everything going on, that I forget, I really am living a life I always dreamed of and that is really freaking cool. My heart is always bursting for NYC and I will miss it deeply.

I am staying at my aunt’s apartment right now before I leave, which is much much more spacious than any place I’ve ever lived in here. As much as I wanted to process the emotions of moving out, I was also deeply overwhelmed by my space and my belongings, and I feel so grateful for this little luxe in between I’m in right now..the calm before the storm. And to physically and mentally have the space to just kind of prepare for this journey ahead.

There are parts of me that feel nervous, but the overwhelming feeling is like I said above, calmness. This just feels right. And really cool honestly. Like really freaking awesome that I’m doing this. I’m proud of myself. I’m so beyond excited, but I have to get there. I’m still very in my moment right now. And I also want to go into the summer with no expectations. As much as I know it is going to be absolutely incredible, I just want to LET IT be. And just live life and do my thing as authentically and beautifully and happily as possible <3

I have said so many goodbyes this week - and yes I know I’m only leaving for the summer, I’m being dramatic, BUT I am so lucky to have such an amazing community in New York. I am going to miss my people so much. In the past couple weeks, I got to watch two of my best friends get engaged to the loves of their life, one of my best friends graduate grad school and pursue her dream career; just so many celebrations of all of the beautiful parts of life. I’m so thankful that I was able to bask in these moments with them and celebrate everyone. Celebrating people’s wins is such a wonderful thing. We are at this age where everyone is up to something different in life, and seeing my friends around me all doing such different things feels really grounding and exciting.

Well my Uber Eats is about to come, but I thought I’d sit with you guys and just share how I was feeling! I can’t wait to take you along this journey and hope if anything, I can inspire you all to live for yourself and go after the things that you want! I will chat with you all in Paris. I arrive on Tuesday, but I don’t move into my apartment until the 9th so will be a bit of a chaotic week. I am working with another cute boutique hotel for the first couple of nights, so I can’t wait to show you guys all of that content. My first trip coming up is to Florence which I’m SOOOO excited for, please send me all your recs. I am going to try to send out a weekly newsletter and I’m sure I will be sharing so much on IG + TikTok, but I also want to dedicate time to being present and soaking it all in.

AHHHH AU REVOIRRRRR! and wish me luck with the insane amount that I packed. I am terrified to get to that airport and weight that luggage.

I love you all so much and thank you truly for all of your kind words and support as I enter this new little life adventure!

XOXO,
Soco <3